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Experimental: a spider’s story

Part 1

"Man is an animal suspended in webs of significance he himself has spun...," writes Clifford Geertz, Father of Interpretive and Symbolic Anthropology. Geertz was adapting from Max Weber, emphasizing that culture isn’t something external to us; it’s the meaning-making structures humans create (language, rituals, symbols, institutions) and then live within. The “webs of significance” metaphor suggests that we are both the makers of culture and constrained by it. 

Geertz’s “webs of significance” show that meaning is never fixed but constructed, contingent, and unstable. These webs overlap, clash, and shift with context, making truth a matter of discourse and power rather than universal essence. In this sense, culture is not a stable structure but a fluid play of interpretations.

In this story, the webs become more literal. They are symbolic of competing systems of meaning.  The spider spins its own “web of significance,” and neither is inherently truer than the other; instead, their webs represent shifting interpretations shaped by context, power, and narrative perspective.The story resists a single moral or fixed truth: the spider is a trickster, whose cunning artistry both destabilizes hierarchical order, and shows how meaning is always entangled in overlapping webs rather than anchored in one universal frame of truth. 

In this story, the spider uses the power of meaning-making to tell the truth by weaving illusion. Part I is experimental writing which outlines a future that has yet come. 
He Crawls Along Petrified 

I am a shape of Chaos.
I am spider, I am man, I am rumor.
Don’t look at me as though I am far away, this story crawls on your skin even now.

My so-called friendourss, yours too, perhaps; invited me to a feast.
Every betrayal hides inside a feast.
The food was heavy with forgetting.
Each bite was a hand pushing me into silence.
I could have stayed there. You know the pull.

And then Chaos sat across from me.
You know Chaos.
That hum in your chest at night.
That voice that says: Stop. Don’t move. Let it all dissolve.
Chaos leaned close and whispered: What is the point of weaving, when you can rest in nothing?
Maybe you’ve heard that whisper, too.

But I spun.
Not silk, no, I spun scraps.
A bad joke. A broken promise.
A fragment of myself I thought I’d lost.
I wove them together until there was enough thread to climb back into myself.
You can do that, you know. Even if the strands don’t match.

Then came the outsiders, with fire in their hands and certainty in their eyes.
They hated me for bending the world with laughter.
They called my name like a curse: Spider! Trickster! Come out!
And my friends pointed at me, eager to trade me away.

So I scattered.
You would have laughed, or maybe panicked.
One Shape running, another mocking, another vanishing.
They stabbed at shadows.
They struck at smoke.
Soon no one remembered who hated whom, or why.

But listen, while they fought, I dangled above them on a single trembling thread.
Chaos was there, too. Always climbing, always patient.
It doesn’t need fire. It doesn’t need betrayal.
It only needs you to stop weaving.

And here I am, speaking into your ear.
The village burns below, the web shivers above.
I am still weaving, still breaking, still Crawling Along Petrified...

I am the pause between two stories. 

Did the spider win?

Did Chaos retreat?

Or is weaving itself the only refusal,

the only victory possible?

So I just keep spinning...

Each one a reminder:
Order is fragile,
Chaos never leaves,
but the act of spinning is everything.


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